I do not know why but I keep thinking today that I have not done anything in my life that made me happy "real", I have nothing that I would have at this point in my life and not I have done nothing that the "social conscience" says he should have done already.
I mean, according to the "social conscience" should have finished the race several years ago, working, having a fixed and stable steady partner for quite some time (even be married and a son, or failing that, being pregnant-). But all of that, I have only ... nothing.
As for what I would have gotten itTAS point in my life (having already finished my studies, working as an interpreter, be good at my job, have a nice house with pool jardíny, pequeñoy practical car, an animal of sharing AI, (dog, cat, ferret ...), a group of friends go out and prepare s for dinner at home because of all that ...), I got ... nothing.
seems that the only thing I got from all that is just a boyfriend who is a charm, but given my history with the couple, maybe not last much longer, I would be wrong and it lasts ; bouquets life together, but may not be so ... Anyway, between all that queríaceacute; the novels I've been wanting to write since I have 13 years adelgazaré never more that 10 kilos I gained back from France (and its logical consequence: that never get to get back all the clothes that I loved before fat), which never ...
I know that in the end, only a bad day tomorrow Diaye probably all be part of the memory until another day, return to feel "low morale", but I also know Today I'm going to go bad because after all what hurts most is the moment we are living and not what has already happened (the tiempo heals everything) or what has not arrived yet (because we do not know what will happen tomorrow.)
So for today we have a small dose of resignacióny a great deal of depression, mix well and take without restraint, and that tomorrow will come without asking and without warning.
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